Hearts will hold

I know I’ve been M.I.A. lately. And PNN, I am so sorry.

There’s just been so much going on.

I have eleven weeks to go! I’m still at a healthy weight and the “boy” is coming along, kicking-ly.

I have nearly finished planning the baby shower; which you ALL are invited to! (It is at Gourmet Oriental in Weymouth, November 28^th at 5pm.) We also registered at Target.com under “Paulina and Mark’s Baby Registry!”

We also have Lamaze classes starting this Saturday morning at 9:30.

My stepfather turns fifty on Sunday.

I still need to find a pediatrician who is covered under either of our insurances.

The last month I’ve been apartment searching.

I just finished most to all of my legal health matters.

And lastly, I found out Mark has been lying and cheating on me for the whole time we’ve known each other/ been together.

He said you "could have been anybody" that he just wanted to experiment with dating someone else. He said there was nothing special about you, that you were just an ordinary person, "could have been anybody" and that you two "didn't work". He said he saw his mistake and just wanted to try it with me again.

We decided to get back together. Then, about a week or two later, he found out about the baby (but before you went to the doctor). We slept together that day, and continued to sleep together all the way through until I left at the end of June. This is when all the pain and confusion I told you about before was happening. We decided it was best for me to leave. He kept saying "until this is over" and then he "will come get me". He said you two didn't work, he wished if someone had to be pregnant that it was me, he wished he'd never met you. He kept saying that he was 100% sure he wanted to spend his life with me, marry me, have kids with me.

Direct quotes from this ex-girlfriend, Zoe; from when we were messaging back and forth.

"Hold your own, know your name and go your own way. And everything will be fine."